Chrismas right around the corner...

    Well its the day after Thanksgiving.. BLAK FRIDAY. My fabo news feeds are full of the nutzos that went shopping in all this maddness! Honestly, i wanted to go this year. For the experience, but so broke!! Maybe next year though. 

   Thanksgiving was great. Michaels mom Jill-lynn and his little sister Caitlyn came up wednsday night and spent the night with us, at Mark & Metas. Were house sitting for them, while their in Toxiaway, NC for the hoilday. We went out to good ole' Eastside Station wed night for BEERPONG. (since Nachos closed, they have it there now) It was SO fun, Caitlyn turned 18years old today & this was her first time at a bar. She had a BLAST.

Everyone got to meet Jill and Punk. And TJ and Uncle Jason met them too. Jill, Punk and Michael seriously danced the night away! All night long, they were breaking it down on the dance floor :)

Nothings going to stop me now...

    Well its been 7 weeks since us gals have started our Biggest Loser Competition. And we are all doing so well, Kaitlyn is kicking ass and is down 17.4 lbs already!! Jessica is down 10 lbs!! I cannot believe how well were all doing. Sticking with it and motivating each other daily:) I am so proud of everyone. 

                                          

   I hit a huge weight miles stone last week. I have been struggling to get passed a number for the past 3months.. seriously been flirting with those few pounds.. and i FINALLLLLY got over the hump. It felt amazing. I got on the scale at home and just cried. Its been such a battle up and down and i finally got over it. Ahhhhhhh!! now i am 6lbs under that.. and since BL competition has been going on.. im down...drum roll pleeeease... 14.6lbs and 9.6 inches. Which i can tell BIG TIME on those inches. Michael even said something and he sees me EVERYDAY. I feel awesome and so motivated to keep going. I am so close to my goal weight, i can taste it :) 

   Since last year i am down 71.2 lbs.. I cannot freaaking believe it. It never hit me, how large i was until now. The pictures are so gross.

I am not stopping until i hit my goal. And these pictures just make me want it even more. You must make a choice to take a chance...or your life will NEVER CHANGE. I am making my choice now to never let myself get to that point again.( My bad that above picture was from Xmas 2009.) 

              YOU HAVE GOT TO WORK FOR IT. Its really a life style change completely.

    2009 was a bad year for me. Weight was up and down.. clearly mostly up. Thats when Michael and i were going thru problems. and i was stressed the F out. Lindsay's wedding is def my biggest i have ever been. I remember Tiffanee telling me something my little sister asked her, if i was okay.. bc i had gained a lot of weight. I dont even remember eatiing that summer. i just stayed drunk. it was disgusting. i was the queen chugger at all the parties.. but i gained 40lbs probably in that summer alone.

                          PUSH YOUR SELF, BC NO ONE IS GOING TO DO IT FOR YOU.

           EAT CLEAN. TRAIN MEAN. GET LEAN.

     i am not there yet...but damnit, i am closer than i was yesterday!!!
until next time...


                                                                                                                  <3 Tequila Waistline ;)

goals

Well here we are, tmrw is the first of Oct and i feel like this past year has just slipped away. We got some bad news here at work...our building was sold and were shutting down, like very soon. I an almost positive next week sometime. So i am back to job hunting. I would love an office/receptionist job, & bartend for fun again. But I'm doubting I'll find a desk job. Tony's bar is hiring and its right near my apartment...I'm going to go by there this weekend.

Michael got a job with Nth degree on the show floor making great money. He is so excited, and i am thrilled for him...this couldn't have come at a better time! He starts this Tuesday.

So after reading my baby sisters blog, i have come to the conclusion that my life is being wasted. She's living out in utah with her husband and trying to start a family, while going to school for CRIMINAL JUSTICE. I'm envy that girl, and she has got me really thinking. I am so tired of working my ass off to pay my bills. Its been years since i have had a vacation. And the way things are going i don't see one in my near future.

I have decided i am going back to school. I want a business degree and then go from there. I am almost 24years old and bartending isn't what i want to do. I have no idea what to even do to go back to school, but i am setting a goal for myself to start by January. That gives me three months to figure my shit out. I fucked up in high school & always told myself, i will go back when I'm ready to take it seriously...i think i am FINALLY at that point.

Speaking of goals...
The girls and i have started a friendly competition of weight loss!! The biggest loser challenge. And we have 15weeks to complete it. We all put 20$ in a box and we took our measurments and weight. Every Monday we will weigh in with $1 fee. And you pay additional money if you gain weight..$1per lbs! Were all so excited about it. Most weight lost after the 15wks wins the cash pot:) my goal is to lose 30lbs in the time span of the challenge. This week was harder with the hours i have worker and stress about the bad news. I ate mexican one afternoon, but i walked and ran that night. I havnt bad time to exercise but hopefully walking around Nachos has helped. And i have been eating salad or chicken salad all week. I havnt consumed to much water tho, but i have drank probably my weight in cranberry juice. I believe i have a kidney infection...yay me! Ugh hopefully going to the doctors next week, to get checked out. I need a physical as well, because when i ran the other day...i was weezing, again. Just a few more problems to add to the mix, lol. I havnt been to a doctor in years, just always afraid of hate they might tell me, "ms stone, you have 6months to live" yeeeeah freaks me out. But i will suck it up this time to get rid of this aweful pain!

Well i am super excited about my goals i have set, and i will achieve them! Ready...set...go: )

Until the next time,
HOLLA; )

CHANGE...

I feel like so much has changed over the past few weeks. I havnt hung out with my girls in weeks. . . Work has been keeping me busy while kicking my ass. We're short staffed right now, so basically Allie and i live at Nacho Daddys, and still not making the money we were before wild wings (down the street) & mcdonalds (nextdoor) openned up:/


I havnt been able to hit he gym recently...which i think is a main reason for all my stress lately! Not even football practice...we have a game Sunday too, kinda worried about my cardio! Not to mention I've gained 5lbs as of this past Monday, not to sound lame. .. but I've worked hard this summer to lose my 38 lbs! And i have 17more to go to reach my goal, and working all these hours I'm pulling, i have no time to cook, and Nacho or fast food has just been easier! So this week i knuckled down, I've already lost those 5lbs i gained..back on my crank pills and I'm going for a run after work today because this weather is amazing!!! I need to continue to see decresing waistline, the only thing that needs to be increasing is the cash in my wallet. Haha; )


Well sad news, my best friend isnt getting married anymore. It doesn't seem real to me still, i always have looked at them as a pair..you don't get one without the other. Its weird. It all went down in Miami, the trip i wasn't able to go on. Really sucks, everyone seems stick in the middle, bc were bffs with both. But naturally the boys are drawn to him, and the girls to her. But I'm trying to be there for both...but at the same time trying to act as normal as possible, i mean what can you say to either of them at a time like this, Ya know. Idk...maybe its a good thing work keeps me busy, so i can avoid the situation...but then I'm not upholding my bestfriend duties. I just don't want to hear bad talking about the other, i think. Or get caught talking to one, and say to much. All i can is lend a listening ear, and a dry shoulder to cry on i guess. Love you both so much! Days will go by..things will get easier, & you'll be stronger <3

Xoxo

slim, thin, curvy, fat

  

Thin is in!
Lose weight!
The pressure to be thin is terrible nowadays.
Years ago, curvy was in.
Marylin Monroe was quite the sex goddess with her curvy body.
She'd be considered "fat" by today's standards.
So, why are curves considered bad now?

 

I was watching a OLD  Spice Girls performance the other night and a guy friend of mine made the comment of how fat Ginger Spice was. Um exuse me? I HATE it when guys make fat comments about any woman who has curves! When I say curves, I mean ladies that looks like a woman. She is not starved to the point where she looks like a boy. She has a feminine shape to her body. When I say "fat". I mean not accepted by media, because they have too much shape.Not starved.

 

From what I understand the average woman is a size 10 or 12. That is not skinny and it is not fat.

 

Ever since I was young, I have always been self conscious about my height and weight, like any girl. I am a diet pill junkie. I have probably tried every fad diet and diet pill out there. But I do realize I will never be stick thin. Nor do I have any desire too. I am tall and samoan

 

When life gets tough, the tough get going...

This past week or so, things have literally been a roller coaster.

I recieved some sad news from my baby sister and her husband. That has been having my head turn, just thinking about her. Hoping she is finding comfort and doing okay. I hate not being close to her, when she got so much going on in her life... i know Chris is there and doing everything he can, to make her smile..but somethings you just need your sisters <3

 Michael lost his job after four long years. I've been more worried about him, bc he honestly LOVED that job and the people he worked with. I know he hates not being the one who makes money, he takes pride in that, and is actually pretty grumpy when hes not working. I reminded him too, of last time he lost his job :( he swore that wasnt happening again. LOL When he gave me the news, he immediatly came up to Nachos and got drunk. And sad, then drunk again. This past weekend, we relaxed with Ryan and Allie for her birthday celebration... and got our minds off our life problems, for a few days atleast. It was fun while it lasted, but guess what Monday showed up and all our problems were still waiting for us.

 I had to make a "grown up" decision. I am no longer going to Miami with all the other bridesmaids :( Its been running in my mind whether to go or not since the news Taylor gave me. I have only been promising my babysister i'd come to Utah to visit her only for uhhh... SINCE she started college! Now she has a house, husband, new job and car.. and i still havn't made it over there!! So i thought if i am going to go ANYWHERE, it NEEDS to be to see her... especially now! And once Michael lost his job, it was kinda like confirmation. I cant afford it, even though i NEED a vacation...its just not in my means for awhile :(

Today everything has hit me, i am freaking out about $$$. Work has been so slow lately...phones off, not a priority right now until after rent is paid. I am hoping to God, we get busy at work the next few days while i am on the clock, or at least a fat tipper walks in and sits at my bar!!!

Until next time...

control your jealousy bc i cant control my temper!

For those of you who know me, i have always been a "guys girl."

I remember when i was young after my mom passing away, i clung to my Dad. Everything he was, i wanted to be. Everything he did, i wanted to do. When my dad got remarried. .. i remembered getting yelled at often because i would spit..(yes SPIT) everywhere, and i did it bc dad did. When i got older, i was a tomboy. Scrapped knees, bike rides, kickball with the neighbor boys. I played basketball since 6th grade. I was a bully to my siblings and towards other people. I have never been really scared of anyone, i have been in a few fights and have yet to get my ass kicked. I am extreamly competitive, and i must win.

Well i have grown out of the gross tomboy stage. I enjoy dressing up, doing my hair... and making myself look and feel pretty. I am no longer a bully, actually i am probably one of the nicest, down to earth girls you'll ever meet. Which FINALLY brings me to my point, i am a friendly girl, i like everyone..guy or girl! I have no problem having a convosation with anyone. I am for sure a people person.

**GIRLS STOP MISTAKING MY FRIENDLINESS FOR FLIRTING*** I DO NOT WANT YOUR MAN, I AM VERY HAPPY WITH MY BOYFRIEND***

I don't know what's up, but recently i have been accused over and over again of something going on btwn me and so&so. I'm so over it. If you girls would take a second to talk to me, you will find out that i talk to you the exact same way.
I have never thought of myself as a flirt.. like i said before...i am just a friendly person. So all you crazy jealous girls, especially the one threatning to whoop my ass because i said "hey" to her man at the club. Chill the hell out. don't talk about it... be about..